time

ah, it's been a while.

the weather's finally starting to cool off, so now I have nothing to complain about... well.
school sucks like always. procrastinating like usual. nice to know SOMETHING hasn't changed. I need a job. I need to be more outgoing. maybe I'll actually meet some new people. :O shock.

I keep thinking that things will happen when they're supposed to happen, and things will change when they need to change, but I'm sick of waiting. I'm going to make some things change. . I just don't know HOW.
blah.

I'm going home. after I write some more. ;)

well, now that fall's here I don't know what to be waiting for. I mean, obviously there are lots (especially for me) but I mean, something inevitable. like christmas or something. next full moon. I don't know. I don't know! I guess I'm not really waiting for anything. this is also new. hmm.

I'm still working on the whole not caring so much thing. but I'm getting better.

get a clue

I hate how everyone looks the same these days. last fall, when all of this stuff was "new" and "in style" no one liked it. ie: skinny jeans, 60's bobs, flats, huge sunglasses, etc. now everyone and their mom is trying to replicate the trends! but it's not that cool anymore! why is this stuff finally acceptable after so many have put themselves out on a limb by pushing boundaries? I mean, when I see people dressed like a model I saw in the new Vogue, that's exciting! or when someone is wearing clothes that you can't get in the popular stores and they look like a freakin ICON, it's so cool. but when your friend comes to class wearing a shirt exactly like one you just got rid of and they say, "isn't this cute? I love the new style of clothes.." what are you supposed to do?? "oh yeah, that was 'in' about a year ago, but good job finally figuring that out."

I'm sorry, I'm not a beauty queen. I'm not a fashionista by any means, I have a hard time staying "a la mode" as well, but I just hate how people will diss something when it's new and fabulous and then once they see EVERYONE wearing it EVERYWHERE, they think, hey it's okay! I don't have a brain so I'll try to look exactly like that one girl... ugh.

find something new, will you? be yourself. get inspired by the trends but don't be a copy. you can't be that one girl, because only SHE can be that one girl. you are YOU. deal with it. and embrace it!

my pain meds are starting to wear off..