I went to Denver to shop at the Cherry Creek shopping center today. it was depressing. I mean, not because everything was SOOO expensive and it would have been laughable to see ME walk into the Louis Vuitton store like I could do something, I'm used to that. that's why I <3 that mall so much. the depressing thing was the fact that I DID have money and COULD have spent it on SOMETHING (maybe not Louis Vuitton.. ) but I didn't!! I didn't spend my money! what the deuce is happening to me? I used to LOOOOVE spending money on frivolous things that would make me happy for about two months! am I growing up? ick! I used to swoon over the shoes in Neiman Marcus that I usually only see on the pages of my fashion magazines and be amazed that I could actually pick them up and *gasp* maybe try them on! now it's nothing. it's the same old thing over and over
I always go to Cherry Creek and marvel at the prices and the types of people who actually AFFORD it all. I always get strange looks when people notice my undone hair and my frumpy clothes and my lack of designer jewelry. maybe I'm over it. maybe I want to blend in now for some reason and not be noticed. maybe I don't actually want to go to Cherry Creek anymore :(
how sad am I? this type of stuff pops into my head.. oh well
I'm supposed to call my dad tomorrow to tell him how I haven't been looking for jobs and definitely haven't FOUND a job and probably don't even care about a job anymore. fucking hell. what am I doing with my life?
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