I have to pee.

for lack of a more witty title jumping into my head.

it is true though...


ANYway. it's monday and I had trouble getting up at 6 this morning, but I didn't have trouble getting up at 4 this morning because I had to pee. I was perfectly energized! I think I only laid back down because I'm lazy. apparently that was a mistake. why do I feel the need to write about this pointless shit?? ugh.
I might as well gripe because that's what I'm best at I think.
I need a book for class that they do not have at the school bookstore, rams bookstore OR big dog textbooks. I don't want to order it online. :( I don't want to ask Barnes & Noble or the bookstore on campus to order it for me, cuz who knows how long that'll take. (and because of my social anxiety)
I don't know why, but I've been listening to slow, moody, dramatic music lately that makes me cry. because it makes me cry. (I know why I listen to it, I just don't know why I'm torturing myself) I actually caught myself tearing up in the library the other day because of a SONG. that's no good.
fucking school. ruins everything. I want to say "peace out" to this summer class, but I'm halfway through, so that's a dumb idea. I need a job, my car is falling apart and I'm scared to tell my dad, I like being at home more than anywhere else (well, almost anywhere else), and I have no friends nearby to keep me company. (so go meet some new people, right? yeah yeah, I know) punk.

I'm such a baby! man.